Never Satisfied.

The first time I heard U2’s I Still Haven’t Found What I’m Looking For, way back in 1987, I arrogantly thought oh, those poor guys. So close to Truth, yet missing it. Still looking when God is right there. As if God’s something you find or stumble upon or that once you “find” Him, that’s it. Over the years it’s increasingly clear that they’re not the ones who missed it, I was. I misunderstood the song and the sentiment. I think I understand it better now.
My adult life I’ve longed for satisfaction.
Constantly fighting against discontent, I seek to practice contentedness.
Not wanting to be a negative, complaining, never enough kind of girl, I’ve looked for fulfillment often confusing it with peace.
But I still haven’t found what I’m looking for.
In my middle age, I realize that’s a good thing

God wants me never satisfied.
He wants my heart longing.
He wants me seeking and searching and fervently looking; desperate for more.
There’s purpose in the pursuit.
He wants me seeking more Him.
He wants me never satisfied with the status quo.
Good enough isn’t enough when it comes to God.
More and more and more and forever more God.
Looking and seeking and searching until Kingdom Come.

You, God, are my God,
earnestly I seek you;
I thirst for you,
my whole being longs for you,
in a dry and parched land

where there is no water. ~David


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3 Replies to “Never Satisfied.”

  1. Someone exceedingly sweet and wonderful once said, I absolutely love your ever seeking, never satisfied, forever His, beautiful heart.

    And that's all I can think to say about this post.

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